Here I am again. Well I'm not really back here yet, it's just... I want to put this question out of my mind to have more focus on the other exams, since I only got 5/10 at Maths, I did OK the others. Only Literature, Geography, Chemistry and English are the only ones I have left.
Ugh, I failed.
Anyway, as I said, I need to be focus a lot more, I mean, a lot. I need to study.
Time to let my brain do its backtrack. My brain would be a little... Messed up because, you know, trying to recall it all and that.
(Inspiration for all this, rewinding back to my memories was from Crystalhedgie
's journal: "Creation of 'Crystalhedgie'" - crystalhedgie.deviantart.com/j…
I got to know Sonic since I was 8, when I first watched Sonic OVA in DVD (a friend of my Mom gave me that on my 8th Birthday), at first I didn't have any interest in the speedy blue hedgehog. Until I knew Internet a year later, I began to search the name Sonic the Hedgehog and I started to get crazy over him.
I was a rubbish artist by that time, honestly. I couldn't give any shots on papers yet, only playing with my fingers on air. I was weird, I know. But maybe that was the only way I could improve a little bit of my drawing skills! (Still having the habit today.)
I turned 10 and I became members of different forums, Sonic Speed Zones (first) and Two Tailed Fox Forums (second), by that time I knew more Sonic characters: Shadow, Rouge, Big, Silver, Blaze and the others. Almost all of the SEGA Sonic charas. And Tails became one of my most-favorited ones, aside from Sonic and Shadow. I hated Amy as she was obsessed towards Sonic and kept on chasing him non-stop. (Now I like her, give respect and equal likes to all the characters, but Sonic, Shadow and Tails are still remained my favorites.) And, so, I saw that many people have their own fan characters, so why not have one myself? Kinda embarrassing to admit, but aside from Sonic, I knew Detective Conan when I was 6, and I was amazed by the image of Kaitou Kid, so I put his real surname, Kuroba, as the name for my white hedgehog
with kinda long hair (Kinda alike to Amy but I never realized it!), with clothes a little like Saskia by now, and with red eyes, and her surname Shadow (Yep, Shadow the Hedgehog). She didn't have her real personality, and I saw creating a fan character wasn't quite entertaining so... I put her into trash.
When I turned 11, I got to know one of SilverAlchemist09
's fictions, The Tails Ghost, and I got amazed by her drawing skills. I tried to copy the style (I hadn't known the term "recolor")and I managed to make it a bit. I was inspired by the way she drew Tails, so why not? And BAM! Kuroba the Fox was born! (Female version of Tails actually, I always loved the color green, so I put that as her eyes color.) I completely FORGOT she was actually a hedgehog before I created her again as a fox. But back when I was 10, my Grandma bought me some Christian books on my 10th Birthday, and I saw thw advice of Christianity were oh-so-amazing, that was the only thing I could remember as I followed Christianity since then, and I put Kuroba the Fox as the Daughter of Jesus AND her surname Christ. (Gosh I still see it offensive!!!) Later on in 2012, I saw a person saying that putting the name for her like that sounded a bit offensive, so her name remained only Kuroba (Can't believe that some of you still remember her being the Daughter of Jesus!)
Kuroba the Fox, was actually Shadow Kuroba the Hedgehog. She sometimes called as KuroKid as the number 1412 showing on my username, I was again inspired by Kaitou Kid (his real name is actually Kaitou Kuroba.)
I joined deviantART 17 days after my 13th Birthday, published some of my first pictures there, and I even decided to leave as no one paid attention to me!
Until I met zhenghwang
), he said hi to me on my profile and I watched him right after and oh gosh! SilverAlchemist09
was also on the site too! So I watched her (before this I just knew her around the Internet), found more of her pics, and watched some of her friends (Haku360
as an example :3) And I knew Haku then. I had never been inspired by literatures, but Haku made a change by his Sacrifice of Mine fiction, and I requested him if I could include Kuroba into that and wow! He made her turn out AWESOME!
So... Enough of my immature-ish side.
I remember that I deactivated my account 3 times in total, first was when I was angry and upset of a friend (in 2011, now she's gone and I never heard her again.), second also in 2011 when I was in exams state and when I reactivated, all my pictures and journals, watchers and friends are gone! Only my deviantID was left remaining safe and sound. Luckily, I still had some of the pictures in the memory of my computer, and I re-uploaded a few, then moved on with new arts. Few people criticized my fox as a recolor and she was too much like Tails, so at the near end of 2011, I changed her look into her having dark turquoise hair, others still remained rhe same but as before she was wearing only a shirt, long hair with ponytail AND a Rosary along all the time, by then she has dark hair, with black dress and again, always a Rosary. She was a serious, strong and determined character, as I was inspired by such traits, that's also who I want to be. Later on I changed only her clothings, from that black dress into sky blue jacket, white shirt, creamy jeans and yellow and black sneakers (sometimes I make her wear shades), and then to simpler clothings: Blue jeans and jacket, white long-sleeved shirt and always Rosary along of course. (Sometimes I put her wearing gray, fingerless gloves). She became even more determined, serious and stronger than ever. At first she only had the Laser Eyes superpower, I had the idea ever since I created the hedgwhog, theough time I gave her more superpowers: Controlling the elements, telekinesis as well as the skills of understanding body language, making her easier to communicate with the mutes.
I was so proud of how she changed through time along with me. I changed, so did she. She sometimes acts like someone I want to make a strong bond with, she's like a teacher to me with good wills, her ultimate determination, and her endurance. I just... Am so surprised and at the same time, amused and proud of her. She changed so much, in a positive way. Yes, I know I do draw pictures featuring her broken down, in despair or any kinds of negative moods, but she shall always be the one and only character of my very own that I, myself, admire and love.1
Even though she's by now, dead.
It was incredibly hurt that I had neither a choice nor a way to stop the fate of me killing her off, but I will never forget her, no. That's the reason I came up with Kuroba Chronicles. Thanks to eyerutherford
and I could finally have a specific, clear and complete story-line of my precious character's life. Tragic, yes, but that's what you get for being "different" from the normal ones, no? She was teased in school days and stuffs. Then she met two friends, and who knows, what the truth would be?
Even I have to be ready, even though I'm used to seeing tragic moments like those.
Ay ya... Back to the past... I feel like as time passes by, we usually get recalled by good and bad memories of childhood... Yep, life as the way it always is.
Kuroba, when first showed up to you guys on here, she was a not-so-serious, quite of a character that hardly expresses true feelings, thanks to the tragic moments in her life. That's the reason that causes her worst fear: Losing the people she cares and loves.
"Trusting people will only end up getting hurt, not sooner, then would be later. You would feel hurt anyway. I have been hurt for many times, that I think I will be invicible to those attacks, but no. The hardest steel may crack.
Liars, ignorance, reserved, hard, severe,... I think I can handle them all now."
~Her words (Kuroba the Fox)
Those words are also what I have been hesitating to show to you guys. I know, I know, I can be an "attention wh*re" (I deserve it), but people need to vent sometimes. Somehow, drawing Kuroba in pain calm me down, like magic. Like she takes all the pain I feel and let it all out for me.
I just find myself happy that I created her. And by looking back, I realized that it was a childish choice that I put her in hedgehog form into trash. I wanted to bring her back, but thanks to eyerutherford
's story, I managed to make it.
I can finally have a complete story of her life.
Wow, when I first showed Kuroba on here, she was just a fenale version of Tails with only a ahirt, then became the one who had dark hair, black dress, AND brief changes of attire and da-daaa! Here we have the Kuroba we know!
She IS loved by many people, I don't know why, though. As for me, I saw her personality having good traits and stuffs. Yep, like that.
What do ya think of her? It's a serious question.KurobaFox1412
P.S: ... Long journal is long, and kinda off track, huh? Told you my mind would mess it up.
INSPIRATION IS EVERYWHERE. I mean, everywhere. //headshotforbeingrandom